Monday, 17 September 2018

Blog Tour: Body Swap by Sylvia McNicoll - Review & Excerpt

Body Swap by Sylvia McNicoll

Publishing Date: September 15, 2018
Publisher: Dundurn
Pages: 248
Young Adult Contemporary

The Premise from the Publisher: "A fatal collision - who's to blame? Two bodies, two souls switch in search of justice. When fifteen-year-old Hallie gets knocked flying by a Hurricane SUV, her life ends without her ever having kissed a boy. At an otherworldly carnival, she meets and argues with the eighty-two-year-old driver, Susan. Both return to life, only with one catch - they've swapped bodies. Now Hallie has wrinkled skin and achy joints while Susan deals with a forehead zit and a crush on a guy who's a player. Hallie faces a life in a long-term care residence. Susan gets picked up for shoplifting. As they struggle with technology, medications, and each other's fashion foibles, they start to understand and maybe even like each other. But can they work together to prove that a defect in the Hurricane caused the deadly crash? Or will their time run out?" (Dundurn).

My overall thoughts and review: From the beginning of the book, I liked Susan's character. She was instantly likable and she really felt young at heart which I appreciated. I wasn't completely over the moon with Hallie to begin with because she felt a bit annoying and superficial since her concerns were solely getting a boyfriend and texting. Also her first concern after the near death experience wasn't about how she had so much to do, but she would've died not having kissed a boy. She felt incredibly vapid and self involved but I'm happy to say that through the concept of the #BodySwap, things change for Hallie. She was much more likable towards the second half of the book and I liked seeing her grow as a character. It takes place in Burlington and I liked seeing how they both came to help one another out. Susan wanted to help Hallie get a boyfriend and Hallie wanted to make sure that Susan was able to keep her freedom and not end up in a retirement home. There's a mystery/investigative aspect of the book involving what really led to the accident that happened in terms of the defect on the car. There's also an unexpected twist in regards to Hallie's quest for a boyfriend. The book is on the shorter side but it deals with body image and ageism, and overall, I really enjoyed it. It also has a Christmas/winter setting which was nice too. I really liked the idea of Freaky Friday but with a complete stranger, and it just goes to show how putting yourself in another person's shoes (quite literally) can alter your perspective on many things.

My rating of the book: ✮✮✮✮ (4/5 stars)

Available for purchase at:
DundurnChapters/Indigo, Kobo Books, Amazon, and Book Depository

Excerpt from the Author - Carpe Diem

Be sure to drop by the other stops on the tour for more content about #BodySwap! 

Disclaimer: An advanced e-reader's copy of the book was provided by Dundurn for participation in the book tour. All opinions of the book are my own.

Monday, 10 September 2018

Blog Tour: Dirty Headlines by L.J. Shen - Excerpt


"Dirty Headlines is a fantastic enemies to lovers office romance with a perfect filthy asshole hero that I wish I'd written myself." - Laurelin Paige, New York Times bestselling author

Dirty Headlines, an all-new sexy, enemies-to-lovers romance from bestselling author L.J. Shen is available NOW!

Thursday, 6 September 2018

Blog Tour: Sadie by Courtney Summers - Review and Author Q&A

Sadie by Courtney Summers

Publishing Date: September 4, 2018
Publisher: St. Martin's Press
Pages: 320
Young Adult

The Premise from the Publisher: "A missing girl on a journey of revenge and a Serial-like podcast following the clues she's left behind. Sadie hasn't had an easy life. Growing up on her own, she's been raising her sister Mattie in an isolated small town, trying her best to provide a normal life and keep their heads above water. But when Mattie is found dead, Sadie's entire world crumbles. After a somewhat botched police investigation, Sadie is determined to bring her sister's killer to justice and hits the road following a few meager clues to find him. When West McCray-a radio personality working on a segment about small, forgotten towns in America-overhears Sadie's story at a local gas station, he becomes obsessed with finding the missing girl. He starts his own podcast as he tracks Sadie's journey, trying to figure out what happened, hoping to find her before it's too late" (SMP).

My overall thoughts and review: I had read a book by Courtney Summers a few years back and even participated in the blog tour for it, and I really loved it! If you want to see my review for All the Rage, click here! I stand by what I wrote many moons ago about Summers writing. She writes about dark subject matter in a way that angers you, but also fuels a fire in you. She makes you "feel" about the subject matter. I was really interested to see how this book would play out because it's written in two ways: there is the main podcast script and then there's the story told from Sadie's perspective. I love podcasts and it was actually Serial that got me into podcasts to begin with. The thing with podcasts though, especially ones like Serial, as you listen, you have more questions than you have answers. I think that was especially frustrating and I definitely felt that while reading this book. But what I liked were the chapters from Sadie's perspectives. I found you got the answers you were missing in those parts. Sadie's story is completely gut-wrenching and she was definitely a protagonist that had your heart breaking each time her chapter came around. She is someone who has been through so much and dealt a bad hand, and the one thing in her life that she gave all her energy for was her sister Mattie. Mattie's disappearance and death completely altered her. You really feel her loneliness and her grief in her chapters. Without spoiling the main points of the plot, I really enjoyed this book. It was slow to begin with and it takes some getting used to the format, but once the story picks up about 1/5 of the way in, you'll find yourself having a hard time putting it down.

There was one part of the text that really resonated with me and that was when West (who is the host of the podcasts) sits down with Claire (Sadie's mom), and she gets mad at him because he uses his own daughter "as a reason to see the pain and suffering in her world, and as an excuse in attempt to fix it" (309). We listen to these podcasts, watch these documentaries, and read articles about cases like Mattie and Sadie's, and we look for answers in hopes that somehow we can 'fix' things. I'll admit to getting personally-invested with certain cases, and I know I do because I feel heartache over it, but in a way, my personal investment isn't really for the case itself or the victims, is it? Summers reminds us that we can never really know the full story, but that doesn't mean stories like Mattie and Sadie should simply be swept under the rug once they are "solved" or once they reach a dead end. These kind of stories deserve and need to be told, and not only once.

My rating of the book: ✮✮✮✮ (4/5 stars)

Available for purchase at:
Chapters/Indigo, Kobo Books, Amazon, and Book Depository (Free Worldwide Shipping)

Author Question and Answer
Q: What message do you hope your readers take away from the book?
That’s entirely up to them. I think that’s one of the most wonderful things about books; that they can mean different things to different readers, and I wouldn’t want to impose my feelings on that at all. 
Podcast Alert!
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The trailer for the show is available on Apple Podcasts, Stitcher, and all the major podcast platforms. Episode 1 will be available beginning August 1st, and the six-part series will air weekly.

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Disclaimer: An advanced reader's copy of the book was provided by Raincoast Books for participation in the book tour. All opinions of the book are my own.

Monday, 3 September 2018

Blog Tour: The Lost Queen by Signe Pike - Review and Excerpt

The Lost Queen by Signe Pike

Publishing Date: September 4, 2018
Publisher: Touchstone
Pages: 544
Fantasy Fiction

The Premise from the Publisher: "I write because I have seen the darkness that will come. Already there are those who seek to tell a new history... In a land of mountains and mist, tradition and superstition, Languoreth and her brother Lailoken are raised in the Old Way of their ancestors. But in Scotland, a new religion is rising, one that brings disruption, bloodshed, and riot. And even as her family faces the burgeoning forces of Christianity, the Anglo-Saxons, bent on colonization, are encroaching from the east. When conflict brings the hero Emrys Pendragon to her father’s door, Languoreth finds love with one of his warriors. Her deep connection to Maelgwn is forged by enchantment, but she is promised in marriage to Rhydderch, son of a Christian king. As Languoreth is catapulted into a world of violence and political intrigue, she must learn to adapt. Together with her brother—a warrior and druid known to history as Myrddin—Languoreth must assume her duty to fight for the preservation of the Old Way and the survival of her kingdom, or risk the loss of them both forever. Based on new scholarship, this tale of bravery and conflicted love brings a lost queen back to life—rescuing her from obscurity, and reaffirming her place at the center of one of the most enduring legends of all time" (Touchstone).

My overall thoughts and review: When I read that the comp for this book was The Mists of Avalon meets Philippa Gregory, I was instantly sold. This story is based on new scholarship and focuses on the sister of Merlin/Lailoken, Languoreth. She was married Rhydderch, and in a lot of popular culture, the emphasis is more on her brother and his connection with the Pendragons. I had no idea Merlin even had a sister to begin with, so I was intrigued. I know that with historical fiction, certain liberties are taken and I'm ok with that. I don't think I've read a historical fiction that takes place during the sixth century, but after finishing this, I'm already awaiting more books from Signe Pike, and I want to read everything I can about the sixth century.

This book is divided into four sections and it's quite a big book, but the way Pike writes does a wonderful job at world building. I felt I could easily envision Cadzow, Patrick, and Strathclyde. Everything was so vivid in Pike's descriptions. I definitely got some Game of Thrones vibes from the book. Languoreth's father, Morken, was a Northern King, and while Lailoken was able to go forth and become a Wisdom Keeper, Languoreth was to be wedded to someone who would one day become King to strengthen the alliance between the Northern King and the High King. Languoreth finds herself attracted to a warrior in Emrys Pendragon's group named Maelgwn. As a romance reader, I loved these parts of the book so much. There were some swoony moments, but I will say, I wanted so much more. Give me more Languoreth and Maelgwn please!! Things change in the second part of the book though, when Languoreth is wedded to Rhydderch to strengthen the alliance. Though Rhydderch was a good husband to her, there wasn't the passion and love that was present with Maelgwn. I loved how this was more than a love story, because it focused on court politics, what one does to protect one's family, and the way women were treated during this time period. Langoureth is placed in such a unique position, because she must be careful in her new home and adjusting to the new rules, while her heart is firmly still set upon the Old Ways. I don't want to give away too much of the plot points, but there were quite a few twists and turns I did not see coming. There is a lot in this novel.. and I really loved Langoureth as a character. She's incredibly strong and there's so much that she went through. The final two parts of the book focus more so on Langoureth's marriage to Rhydderch, and then finally, her role as a mother. So I'm guessing now that the future books in the trilogy will focus on another character instead of Langoureth. But I do hope to see more of her in the future books again. Overall, I really enjoyed this book. I loved the world building and just how strong of a female protagonist Langoureth was. I've read and watched many adaptations of the Merlin and King Arthur lore, but never has there been one that focuses on a female during the sixth century and their struggles. This book is incredibly unique and even if you aren't particularly interested in the history of this time period, it's a beautiful book about love and family.

My rating of the book: ✮✮✮✮½ (4.5/5 stars)

Available for purchase at:
Chapters/Indigo, Kobo Books, Amazon, and Book Depository

Chapter Excerpt
A “Knowing,” or so the Wisdom Keepers called them. At night, and even in waking, Lail told me, he dreamt of such things: salmon circling the bottom of a forest pool, or the speckled eggs of a faraway falcon’s nest. It had been Lail who had woken from sleep that first morning after Mother died and heeded the call to the river. There he’d found the red stag standing in the shallows as if it were waiting. My brother had a gift for reading such signs from the Gods. We were only ten winters—Lailoken was young to have such skill. Yet Lail could not make sense of why the great deer had come. Even so, I could sense now that my brother’s gift was growing. Messengers came often to Cadzow with news for our father, but never before had Lailoken foreseen one. 
I shifted on the stones, straining to hear the sound of hoofbeats I knew were not yet approaching. A rider was coming—it was only a matter of when—and soon our nursemaid Crowan would wake to find our beds empty. I knew we should hurry, yet I could not take my eyes from the water. 
“Was that truly Mother we saw?” I asked. “Is that what it’s like when you see someone from Spirit?” 
“Don’t know.” Lailoken squinted. “I’ve never seen a spirit before.” 
“She looked just as real as anyone. Do you think if we stayed . . . we might see her again?” 
Lail’s blue eyes trailed to the water almost hopefully. But then he shook his head and wiped his nose on the back of his hand. I felt the small stab as he shut me out again and looked to the cliff top, where a yolky sun was filtering through the forest. The spell of dawn had broken. In the current, the stag shifted and meandered toward the opposite bank. I wanted to rest my head on his smooth flanks, make my mother reappear so she could chase away the emptiness. But we moved instead to climb the trail, turning our backs on the water. 
As we reached the little gully where our mother had so often sat by our side, I heard the echo of her voice rising up from the depths of my longing. She had called out my name in the darkness of my dream. But her voice had not been tender or full of love.
Her voice had been full of warning.

Disclaimer: An advanced e-reader's copy of the book was provided by Simon and Schuster Canada for participation in the book tour. All opinions of the book are my own.

Wednesday, 22 August 2018

Batch Reviews #6

Shimmy Bang Sparkle by Nicola Rendell - (✮✮✮✮✮ - 5/5 stars)
Publishing Date: August 21, 2018
Publisher: Amazon Publishing - Montlake Romance
Pages: 320

My Review: This cover and the title of the book *heart emojis all around* - This story follows the leader of master jewel thieves, Stella of the Shimmy Shimmy Bangs, and Nick Norton, who has recently been released from jail. Nick wants to stay on the straight and narrow road, but finds himself drawn to Stella. Stella also is planning a heist that will set her and her team up for life, but with her team out of commission, she has to turn to Nick. I loved seeing them fall in love with another and seeing the risks they were willing to take for each other. Nick is totally alpha male and seeing him put everything on the line for Stella was so, so, sweet! A very cute dog also makes a special appearance in the book so I was all for that. This book was so much fun, it had lots of laugh out loud moments, and ton of moments that had me swooning. This is my first time reading anything by Nicola Rendell, and she officially has a fan for life!

Available for purchase at:
Chapters/Indigo, Amazon, Kindle, and Book Depository
Disclaimer: I received an advanced readers copy of this book from Thomas Allen & Son in exchange for an honest review. All opinions are my own. 

International Guy: Paris, New York, Copenhagen (International Guy #1-3) by Audrey Carlin -  (✮✮✮ - 3/5)
Publishing Date: July 10, 2018
Publisher: Amazon Publishing - Montlake Romance
Pages: 400

My Review: So this is a collection of novellas that Carlin has put together. The series is actually quite big spanning 12 novellas. I was interested in the premise because each novella takes place in a different city, and of course, with my strong love with Paris and New York, I was sold. Unfortunately, the story definitely fell short for me. I found a lot of moments cringe worthy and hard for me to suspend my disbelief. I just couldn't get on board with Parker. There are sexy moments, but something about him definitely bugged me. I also was disappointed to learn that as the novellas went on, the focus remained on Parker, and didn't really focus on the other two guys in the business as well. It's definitely readable and I read this pretty quickly, but I'm not sure if I'll pick up the next novellas in the series.

Available for purchase: 
Chapters/Indigo, Amazon, and Kindle
Disclaimer: I received an advanced readers copy of this book from Thomas Allen & Son in exchange for an honest review. All opinions are my own. 

Hot Asset by Lauren Layne (✮✮✮✮✮ - 5/5 stars)
Publishing Date: May 22, 2018
Publisher: Amazon Publishing - Montlake Romance
Pages: 270

My Review: I've always loved a good business man/CEO type male lead in romance stories. I haven't read a book that takes place on Wall Street though, so I was immediately drawn to this one. I absolutely LOVED this book. I couldn't put it down. It follows Ian Bradley who exudes the Wall Street persona and an investigator, Lara, who is investigating him on a tip of insider trading. Lara is the first to not fall for Ian's charms and I just loved seeing their interactions going toe-to-toe, but also finding it hard to deny their attraction to one another. I loved seeing them fall for each other, but I think what I loved most is all the secondary characters in the book as well. Ian has two best friends who he works with, there's also his old friend Sabrina, and of course, their awesome assistant who manages their day to day life. I feel like the next few stories will focus on the other people in his life which is nice. It reminds me of the large friend group that is reminiscent of Christina Lauren's books. I loved Ian and Lara's story and I can't wait to read the others in the series to see everyone else's HEA.

Available for purchase at:
Chapters/Indigo, Amazon, Kindle, and Book Depository
Disclaimer: I received an advanced readers copy of this book from Thomas Allen & Son in exchange for an honest review. All opinions are my own. 

Burning Up by Jennifer Blackwood (✮✮✮✮ - 4/5 stars)
Publishing Date: May 8, 2018
Publisher: Amazon Publishing - Montlake Romance
Pages: 256

My Review: I've read a firefighter romance a while back by Karina Halle called Hot Shot, and I really enjoyed it, so I'm all for more firefighter stories ;) When I read the premise for this one, I was definitely intrigued because it's also a single father romance. What was refreshing about this book was that the child was not a baby or a toddler. Jake's daughter, Bailey, was a preteen. It was quite nice to see the change in dynamic and see how their relationship worked. I really like stories that have the trope of bestfriend's sister, or brother's bestfriend. Erin and Jake's attraction was clear from the get-go and I just loved seeing them find their pacing and what worked for them. There was a lot of back and forth, and doubting what was right, but I liked seeing Erin fall back in love with her home in the process as well. I'm excited for the next book because it follows Erin's brother Reece, and I really hope we get more about their sister, Andie! If you like firefighters, a quirky protagonist, and a heavy emphasis on family, this is the read for you!

Available for purchase at:
Chapters/Indigo, Amazon, Kindle, and Book Depository
Disclaimer: I received an advanced readers copy of this book from Thomas Allen & Son in exchange for an honest review. All opinions are my own. 

Tuesday, 14 August 2018

Review: Grace and Fury by Tracy Banghart

Grace and Fury by Tracy Banghart 

Publishing Date: July 31, 2018
Publisher: Little, Brown Books for Young Readers
Pages: 320
Young Adult Fantasy

The Premise from the Publisher: "Serina Tessaro has been groomed her whole life to become a Grace--someone to stand by the heir to the throne as a shining, subjugated example of the perfect woman. It's her chance to secure a better life for her family, and to keep her headstrong and rebellious younger sister, Nomi, out of trouble. But when Nomi catches the Heir's eye instead, Serina is the one who takes the fall for the dangerous secret her sister has been hiding. Trapped in a life she never wanted, Nomi has only one option: surrender to her role as a Grace until she can use her position to save Serina. But this is easier said than done.... A traitor walks the halls of the palazzo, and deception lurks in every corner. Meanwhile Serina is running out of time. Imprisoned on an island where she must fight to the death to survive, surrounded by women stronger than she is, one wrong move could cost her everything. There is no room for weakness on Mount Ruin, especially weaknesses of the heart. Thrilling and captivating, Grace and Fury is a story of fierce sisterhood, and of survival in a world that's determined to break you" (LB).

My overall thoughts and review: As some of you may know now, I'm not a huge fantasy reader. I like fantasy books, but I don't read them so often because it takes a lot to immerse yourself into the world, and it's hard for me to jump into a new world so soon after that. And because I haven't read a ton of fantasy, it's not very often that I read one and it completely blows me away. That was the case with Indigo's August Staff Pick of the Month, Grace and Fury! The last fantasy YA book that I read also happens to be an Indigo Staff Pick of the Month - Everless by Sara Holland - the Indigo SPOTMs have been really good with picking their fantasy picks! ;)

I had heard good reviews from my fellow staff members and bookish friends about how feminist this book was and I'm all for that. I read a bit on my trip away and once I got home, I absolutely devoured this book and could not put it down. The book follows two perspectives: Serina and Nomi. Serina has been prepared to become a Grace, and her sister Nomi, her handmaiden. This is the future that would've been best for them and their family, but things don't go that way, when Nomi is chosen as a Grace and Serina is sent off to Mount Ruin, a prison essentially for women. In this world that Banghart has created, women are to be submissive and aren't allowed to read. They essentially have no rights and are meant to simply play the role that the men in this world have created for them. The sad part is that some men in this world take pleasure in breaking the will of women. Despite that, I loved seeing how both sisters adapted to their new roles and were able to find ways they could stand up to the patriarchy. Although apart, every action one did, they thought of the other. They were able to find likely allies in their new surroundings and I loved that Banghart demonstrated sisterhood is possible even if it isn't blood related. I did see a couple of the twists and turns coming, and in some cases, that would deter me since I figured it out, but in this case, it just made me happy that Banghart went a certain direction instead. In cases where sisterhood and family are involved, some stories can often portray such a volatile relationship that gets caught up in selfishness and betrayal, and I loved that Banghart demonstrated something that can overcome that, something more. Despite not knowing where the other is, and how they are doing in their new surroundings, Serina and Nomi, both loved one another deeply, and they both really demonstrated the importance of family. The book definitely ends on a bit of a cliffhanger, so I hope that means that there are many more books in this series to come. I LOVED this and I would highly recommend this for fans of Sarah J. Maas!

My rating of the book: ✮✮✮✮✮ (5/5 stars)

Available for purchase at:

Disclaimer: *I received a copy of this book from Indigo Books & Music Inc. in exchange for an honest review.* #IndigoEmployee 

Monday, 13 August 2018

Book Club Reads Full Dark, No Stars by Stephen King

Earlier this year, my best friends and I got together to start a book club. I've been wanting to start one for ages and it's always a scary process starting something and worrying about how it will keep it's momentum. You also want to ensure people genuinely have a good time after every meeting and that you are reading books that are interesting. There also needs to be a good dynamic among your group to foster good discussion. After almost 5 months of doing it, I can say adding a book club to my life is one of the best decisions I've ever made. Not only do I get to read books I didn't think I would read, I get to do that with my best friends and get together once a month to discuss them. Reading is such a solitary act, and to come together having read the same book each month brings a social aspect to reading that is quite nice. We don't always agree on if we liked the book or not, but it's great to get various perspectives and to hear everyone's thoughts. 

I also went camping not too long ago, hence the photo here, but book club has brought some firsts for me too. While camping, I read one of the stories out loud to my boyfriend and it was such an awesome experience. We read Big Driver by the camp fire and I think having read the story out loud, it really stuck with me the most out of all the stories. It reminded me of reading out assignments or sharing creative writing in school, but of course, in a fun way. As a fast reader, I feel like reading out loud allows me to slow down and take a step back, and really absorb the text. I won't be able to read every book out loud, but short story collections make moments like that possible. 

This past month we all read Stephen King's Full Dark, No Stars, which is a short story collection of four stories: 1922, Big Driver, Fair Extension, and A Good Marriage. Vik and Liane hosted book club at their place this month since King's book was one of Liane's picks. We designate a month to a person and their book pick! We had lots of great discussion about the themes of family and children that link the four stories together, the narrator's voice and the constructions of self, and the nature of human behavior when in dire circumstances. Everyone was in agreement that the strongest stories of the collection were definitely Big Driver and A Good Marriage

Our hosts went all out and even made themed food items for the event and then we all sat around afterwards and watched the trailers for the various movies. We had some mini pizzas that looked like rats (from 1922), Arlette's Lemonade (from 1922), Spotted Hen Microbrew (from Fair Extension), and Perrier and Lime (from A Good Marriage). The creativity!! *heart eyes emojis galore* Three of the books have been made into movie adaptations. 1922 is the most recent one having come out last year on Netflix. 

I've also gathered some book club members thoughts on the book to share with you all: 
Michelle: “I really loved reading a King book starring a few female protagonists that struggled with dynamic women’s issues. Big Diver was a personal favourite! A story in the horror genre from the female perspective about sexual assault really had me thinking about this and related issues in a new way." 
Niki: "Full Dark, No Stars was endlessly captivating. Each story being more horrific than the last. It wasn't the frightening events that made it as harrowing, but rather the idea that these events were common events, each becoming more and more likely a situation that could exist in our own lives. It was the unexpected  human conscience that was within each story that made it most enjoyable, and the slow collapse in the aftermath of the events. Definitely one of the best books I've read all year."
Liane: "Full Dark, No Stars (a title that is also a warning for what lies ahead) is a collection of stories with a strong theme that threads through each of the four novellas - retributive justice and what that means to each narrator. The stories left me disgusted, unable to sleep, annoyed, and questioning my own actions as well as those of the people around me. Typical Stephen King. 
Jeremy: "I'm not usually a big reader, but I really enjoyed all these stories with Big Driver being my favorite. They kept me wanting to read more and more. I'm definitely becoming a Stephen King fan."  
Brandon: "King’s decision to write from perspectives different than his usual style was refreshing and displays his growth as a writer. I enjoyed that the collection of short stories featured protagonists with varying levels of involvement in the horror that takes place."
I would like to thank the lovely folks at Simon and Schuster Canada for sponsoring the book club this month and sending over copies of the book for us. It's definitely something that will have a special spot on all of our shelves. If you like more book club recaps like this, I'll be sure to post more in the future. I hope that by the end of this post, you will feel inspired to join or start up your own book club. Reading is already rewarding because you get to immerse yourself into new worlds, but reading with a book club ensures you aren't going it alone ;)